Me First

God spoke to me in a big way this week, and it wasn't about how cool I am or how much He loves me this time. It was about my selfish nature and what I could change to strengthen my marriage. For years, I have let Connor go lay down with Daddy at bedtime so I could get some quiet time. Then I put Connor is his own bed, 3 or 4 times during the night, giving up around 3am so I can get some sleep. This week, God showed me that I am not serving anyone but myself with this laziness. Bite the bullet, get the boy in his own bed right away, get my stuff done during nap time, and give my husband that time of companionship and attention. Satan is listening too when God speaks. Now that I have resolved to get more organized so I can do my crafts or cleaning during nap time, Justin is wanting to give up his nap. In the time it took me to write this much, I have had to put him back in his crib three times. Part of me says, Fine, I'll do my cards after bedtime. I can't be expected to not have my own time and if it comes after bedtime at the expense of being obedient, oh well. (Read: me, me, me.)The other part says be obedient to what I know God told me. Everyday we are given opportunities to die to our own selfish nature and put someone else first. "Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility regard others as better than yourselves." Philippians 2:3