Second Guessing

I had to buy new make-up because I was down to just a little bit of foundation left in the bottle. I never seem to buy the same shade or brand twice, because I'm always convinced something else might be better. But then, when I have the new stuff, I hang to the old bottle just in case I don't like the new stuff. It dawned on me as I was looking at my make-up graveyard that my spiritual walk is like that, too, sometimes. I trust that the "new stuff" God wants me to have in my life is definitely better than the old stuff I hang onto, but old habits die hard. I know I'm supposed be kind and forgiving, but sometimes that snippy retort comes flying out before I even realize it was in my mind. So, I reach down deep and apologize, knowing I was wrong, and try to be kind-hearted, even though I don't feel like it. But, like I've been trying to explain to my four year old, obedience is doing something whether or not you feel like it because you were told to do it. So I will throw out the graveyard of "just in case" make-up, and trust in God. I will stop reaching into the shallow pool of my own strength and rely on God to set me on the right path. "He replied, 'Things that are impossible by human resources are possible for God." Luke 18:27 Amen to that!