Idol Worship

Today is Good Friday. This is the day of the most supreme sacrifice ever, when God accepted His Only Son as payment for our sins, of which mine are many. I am feeling convicted of an odd one right now. God told us to have no idols before Him, an idol being anything that we worship more than God. But what happens when wanting to worship Him becomes the idol? It has been my prayer that God set me on fire for His Word, that I thirst for it like needing water in a desert, like Psalm 63 says. He has answered that prayer in a big way. All I want to do is soak up His teachings, whether through the Bible, worship music, watching old Billy Graham crusades on TBN, whatever is available at that minute. But somehow I feel like I'm missing the point if I am getting frustrated with God-given circumstances that won't allow me to worship how I would like. I know the promises of the scriptures well enough to quote them, but are they seeping deep into my spirit to affect the way I act? Colossians 3:17 reminds me to do whatever I do in word or in deed in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to the Father through Him. Psalm 139:1-2 tells me that the Lord has searched me and knows me, He discerns my thoughts from far away. He knows that I want to spend my day, physically, at His feet, learning and praising Him but that this life He has given me has other plans for me most of the time. The scripture that is really speaking to me right now is actually our memory verse from Bible study, which today has a totally different meaning than it did last week. Once again, evidence that God's word is living and active. "Present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship." Romans 12:1